IKE'S WORLD CHALLENGES - Anything Goes with an optional twist EASTER and/or SPRING FLOWERS



TO CHALLENGES I'VE ENTERED

Hello designers from blogs ive entered... i am sorry this wasnt put on your challenge in time. didn't come before. I am with my mom and at her house with her emergency. Because it was about her and really meaningfuli, I still posted it once i came to her house from a break at the hospital. It was more am honour and dedication  to her to follow up and post it late than to win anything.  It felt like a prayer to still post it even though i had no time to post. Thank you... the message is more important to me to be read... and thank you for doing that!
Love and hugs

Samara




Devas!
My favourite thing.
I love how the Garden speaks to me; how the flowers tell me what they need, when they need it.
But more than that - I love the dancing and prancing and frolicking of the Devas.

I have a Garden that needs no watering.
It is prime for the freedom of Devas.
I have written a book on My Garden, which I will post perhaps next week - needing to photocopy the pages.
Suffice to say (trailer) it is about Sunflowers and My Dogs...and everything in between
G-d DOES speak to us through our Garden - if we allow G-d to do that!

For today's (two weeks) challenge over at Ike's (World Challenges) the DT have created some beautiful pieces of art.
They speak to Easter, they speak to Awakening and Aliveness and they speak to the wonders of Springtime and the fact that G-d creates all this 'lovely' around us.
It is very hard not to be Grateful in Springtime.
It is very hard for me not to acknowledge the Presence of G-d in my life.

Without further adieu, I have used Ike's gorgeous GARDEN FAIRY.

It is the first time I have created ANYTHING using my mouse.

I uploaded Ike's Image (Garden Fairy).
Went to PAINT.
And just started.
Click color, re pick a new color click, pick a pen click, and over to the image.
This is completely addictive!

So what you see is my first.
Laptop on my lap and at my Mom's.

Garden Fairy and Spring and Easter...Gorgeous, Renewed, New Beginnings.
And then there is Heartache, Excruciating Pain, and what feels like Closings, Endings and sitting in the Nevermore.

My mom had some discomfort in her tummy 2 weeks ago.
She called an Ambulance (she is such a stong woman to do this on her own in the middle of the night.)
They did a Cat Scan and made an appointment for her to see a Specialist 2 days later.

My mom has Colon Cancer, Bowel Cancer and has just had a Lung Cat Scan 2 days ago.
We don't have the results of this yet.
Apparently 'Cancer Doctors' take Easter holidays too.

We are expecting news this week.

In the meantime she is getting 3 Iron Infusions a last week and this week and set for surgery (with hope that it will go ahead due to the Lung results being positive) in 3 days.

I think I am in shock; my emotions are 'over there' and not attached to me.
I feel like my inners were vacuumed out the moment I heard and some Power took me over to be able to be with her and look after her.
G-d is Present.
I know this.

I don't know what G-d has in store for the end of the week - but I feel faithful.
I have not been able to be anywhere but in the exact millisecond that I am in - not a second behind and not a second in the future.
This is a learning for me.
Ive always been an 'In the Present' type of gal, but this - this is something else completely.
Nothing else exists but truly this exact, precise, immediate second.

And I trust this is G-d's plan.

And my mom - oh, this is the hilarious part!
She has NEVER put herself first, in front of ANYTHING!

Now - oh my G-d - she is learning QUICKLY how to put herself first.
It is (if you can entertain me and imagine) hilarious to listen to her.

Yesterday she said to me "I want you to know the fridge and stove stay with the apartment"... so are you going to do the Laundry tonight or tomorrow?"
You can NOT imagine how remote, how absurd, how just totally weird this is!
MY MOTHER PUTTING HERSELF AND HER NEEDS FIRST - no way.
But yes...even at 89 and in perfect health thus far - only a vitamin - she is LEARNING!

G-d is also with her.
She has the 'death talk' with me in between "what are you making for lunch" and "I need to tidy up my closet in case anyone thinks I am messy" and off she goes...using every bit of energy she can muster up to take every possible thing out of her closet!
Then, she poops out and asks me to organize it.
Honestly Hilarious...truly bizarre...exhausting and...
My mom is allowing me to stay sane!

You have to understand...this is from a woman who could bounce a quarter on ANY bed she makes, any couch that has a bazillion cushions and throws.
My entire life is filled with me turning around after I've made my bed, as I am walking out of my room, to make sure there is not a crinkle, wrinkle, bump or turn.
And now - I LOVE ALL THAT!

I love that I am obsessive like her...
I love that I tell a story 10 times (to the same person) like her.
I like that 5 pounds over weight makes me crazy! (notice like not love lol)
I like that I have to wash every cup and spoon as I use it.
I love that I am passionate about other people's needs.
I love that I am artistic, creative and VERY critical of my work.

Because these are the things in me where I can see my mom.

They all USED to suck!
But now I cherish them, thank them, bless them.
My neurosis is akin to my Mom's neurosis...about everything!
And I will never change it.

I am finished trying to "self improve" all this stuff.
I am done with diets.
I do not regret looking in a mirror 10 times before I leave the bathroom.

Because all of this - every single thing about me I hated - is now the me who is my Mom.

Thanks G-d!


















Challenges Entered


44 comments:

  1. AWESOME !!! This is just a fantastic piece and I love how she has turned out. Your background is amazing (as always) !! Thanks for using her Samara. :-)
    I am sorry to hear about your MuM but I was very uplifted by your Post here. At first I was sad when I read the news but your writing lifted me and made me see things differently. I hope that you have good news on the chest scan and that your MuM's operation goes well. Sending healing vibes and hugs xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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  2. A fabulous creations love all the fabulous colours Ginny x
    My Blog As I do Rodos

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  3. What beautiful bright colors, and what a fabulous creation. While this is not appropriate for this week's Just Us Girls Challenge, which is paper piecing, I'm so happy you shared your lovely work with us. Thanks for stopping by.

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  4. Thanks so much for sharing this amazing creation in the Great Impressions Stamps April Challenge. You've also written a lovely blog post. I hope all goes well for you and your mother.

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  5. Hi Samara. I was sad to read about your Mother and I am sorry also to have to say that our challenge Spring Colours started 3 weeks ago for 2 weeks and we are now on week 2 of our Sketch Challenge I loved your brightly coloured book cover but no CD was used. I think you must have pressed our button by mistake.
    Hoping that things go well for your Mother.
    Carol x
    CD Sunday

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  6. Beautiful background absolutely stunning! I love the composition of the whole piece - awesome effect.
    Glad you stopped by at 613 Avenue Create.
    Hugs Sheryl DT member xx

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  7. Definitely bright and beautiful! Thanks for linking up at AAA Cards.

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  8. Love your gorgeous Art Journal page. You have entered Jo's Scrap Shack's Weekly Challenge where you would be welcome to enter with a creation posted between April 28th and May 5th. Unfortunately we can't accept this entry as it is from before that time. TFS

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  9. I'm so very sorry to hear about your Mum, and I'm sending love and healing wishes. She sounds like the most incredible lady and quite a fighter. I hope she can beat this and have more happy years for you to enjoy with her. Love and thoughts from the team at Less is More x

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  10. Beautiful colors, thank you for joining the sisterhood in our Yippee challenge.

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  11. So sorry to hear about your mum and your card is a fabulous dedication to your mum. Hope she'll pull through and thanks for sharing your card at AAA Cards and Less is More

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  12. Amazing! Love the gorgeous, vibrant background! Thank you for sharing it with us at Stamping Sensations.

    Lynne

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  13. Beautiful! Thank you for sharing at Pause Dream Enjoy Linky Party!
    ~Owner/DT Janis

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  14. Super cute!!! Thank you for joining us at Cupcake Inspirations, good luck!!! Amy DT

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  15. It's a really pretty creation and lovely colours, many thanks for sharing with us at Stamping Sensations challenge.

    B x

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  16. just love that background - thanks for sharing your project at the STAMPlorations Mixed Media Challenge

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  17. So sorry to here about your Mom, but I know what you are going through. Your art piece is just fabulous-thanks for joining us at Kitty Bee Designs!

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  18. Beautiful.
    Thank you for joining at Stamping Sensations this month.

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  19. Beautiful card...love the background! Thanks for joining our weekly challenge at QKR Stampede!

    Brenda DT

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  20. This is a stunning creation and a well written blog post. Fingers crossed for your mum!

    Hugz Tinz

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  21. Beautiful image and gorgeous card. Thanks for joining us at Cut it Up!

    Evelyn
    http://mylittlecraftblog.wordpress.com

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  22. Very colourful creation - thanks for sharing at Penny Black & More. All good wishes to your Mum.
    Lynn x
    DT

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  23. What a stunning journal page.
    Wishing all the very best to your mum. x
    Thanks for playing along with the Daring Cardmakers. :)

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  24. I was so sad to start reading, then how you found the important things in life, my prayers go out to your Mum and yourself. and family.
    I Love the WOW factor in your work, such vibrant colours and colouring. Thank you for joining us at Morgan's Artworld ATG challenge. Hope to see you again. Faith DT

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  25. Thank you so much Samara for entering our challenge at Mustard Seed Faith Challenges. What a delight to showcase your work there so it can inspire others. We appreciate your participation.

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  26. FABulous project...
    Thank you so much for sharing with us at Imagine That Digistamp over at the
    Creative playground..

    Luv CHRISSYxx

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  27. Thinking of your mom. You are a beautiful writer and artist. Thank you for joining the DL.ART Thankful Thursday Challenge

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  28. Beautiful creation!
    Thanks for joining Cut It Up this week!

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  29. Great project thank you for joining us at Polkadoodles Challenge
    Michelle DT

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  30. Thanks for joining in at Daring Cardnakers. X

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  31. A beautiful project, love the colours – thanks for joining in the Glitter ‘N’ Sparkle - Flower Power. I am now following your lovely blog! – Sarah DT – If you would like to follow me too mine is: http://magentasnowflake.blogspot.co.uk

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  32. Thoughts and prayers going out to you and your mum... I am so sorry to hear such news.. Your musing was very inspirational.. It is amazing what we learn about ourselves - things that used to bother us are now part of our everyday lives... We do learn to live with it... Love your journal page.. So full of life and color. Love all the little details you added. Thanks for playing along with us this week at Jo's Fun Friday. AJ DT JSS

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  33. Love the color on this great card. Thanks for joining us this week at QKR Stampede. Karal DT

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  34. What a wonderful creation, so much details and skill here! Best wishes for you and your mum. Thanks for joining us at Inkspirational!

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  35. Wow, you created a really special creation. Just wonderful all those colours. Thanks for playing with us at Addicted to stamps Challenge Alma

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  36. Bold and Beautiful creations! I am sorry you are going through this and I hope your Mom is feeling better! Thanks for sharing with us at DL.ART Challenges!

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  37. Beautiful colours. Thanks for joining us at Sweet Stampin'
    Cass xx

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  38. Awesome project! Thank you for joining our Great Impressions Challenge this month. I hope you come back next month.
    Ruza
    Ruza's Craft Corner

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  39. Stunning! Thanks so much for joining us at Cupcake Inspirations.
    Debbie

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  40. Wonderful mixed media piece. Love the striking colors for the background, hope your mom is doing well.

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  41. Wonderful TAG you made.
    Thank you so much for joining us this week at Colourcrazychallenge.
    Hugs, Tina - DT

    https://colourcrazychallenge.blogspot.de/2017/04/wk-17-crazy-colour-challenge.html

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  42. Fabulous make. Thank you for joining us for our 'Anything Goes' Challenge at Polkadoodles. Hugs Lisa xxx

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  43. Awesome Work... so colorful.
    Thank you so much for joining us this week at Colourcrazychallenge.
    Hugs, Tina - DT
    https://colourcrazychallenge.blogspot.de/2017/04/wk-17-crazy-colour-challenge.html

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My wish for you is a great day full of laughter! Samara x